27 February, 2012

don't be afraid to live your life to the fullest.

Easier said than done, right? I've always wanted to travel but when I read the newspaper or watch the news, there's always something mortifying happening in the world. Murder, Kidnapping, Rape, Acid splash, Accidents...the list goes on and on. I think of all the bad things that might happen to me if I were to travel alone. Thus, I cancel all my plans and chose the safe route, the less adventurous route.

Why so sudden?
I was browsing through facebook and I saw a friend of mine is currently in Japan. He's there for work but damn, I'm so jealous!! I've always wanted to go to Japan ever since I got hooked on anime & manga. A country that produces such lovely loveliness must really be a remarkable place. I'm so into Japan that I learned the language back in 2003 (getting rusty though). I want to bask in the atmosphere of Japan culture~~

Anyway....Back to the subject...
I'm thinking of traveling by land from Kuching(Sarawak) to Kota Kinabalu(Sabah) instead of using the fast & easy route (airplane). I really want to travel by land but I just can't stand the 13 hours journey from Kuching to Miri (still in Sarawak). Plus, I have tonnes of luggage.

After a grueling debate with myself, I decided it's time to take the risk of traveling by land. How can I travel to Japan when I'm way too scared to journey on my own country, right? Conquering my fears as of now. Let the preparation of decreasing my luggage size starts now (courier-ing some stuff back to Kota Kinabalu before I travel.hehe.)

P.s. - Live and let live =)


26 February, 2012

what other people think of you is none of your business.

the key to never getting hurt?
it is to never take what other people think of you to heart.

it is because no matter how you try to change yourself, people will always find something wrong with you and judge you as if they know about you.

It's hard to hear people criticizing your every actions especially behind your back when you're right in the room. I wasn't brought up in this family. I just happened to stumble into it through a friend. I'm an outsider here and yet this "person" doesn't have the decency to tell it right to my face and chose to say it behind my back in a language i may or may not understand.

I'm self-loving & I don't expect that "person" to ever understand me. I'm not her child so don't expect me to behave as if I came from her. This household sure is cold. I hate it here. Missing my home so much. I never want to be back here ever again.


20 February, 2012

MUET blues.

I've finally completed my MUET. This is my second attempt at MUET. The first time I tried it, I was unable to attend the exams and thus blowing off Rm60 (the fee). This time around, the MPM increased the fee to Rm100. So, I just had to make it to the exams.

First MUET attempt story.
Registered in Sabah. Applied for exam centre in Sabah. Went to Selangor for my Degree. Had to transfer my exam centre to Selangor. Got my approval letter late, thus I missed out on the exam.

Second MUET attempt story.
Registered in Sabah and I missed the dateline for registration by one day! So, I had to write a formal letter to MPM to allow me leniency to take MUET. Applied for exam in Selangor. Internship in Sarawak. So, I had to apply for an exam centre transfer as well. Luckily, this time around, I could print out my approval letter from the MPM website. So I managed to take the exam.

Even so, I almost missed out on my exam due to not constantly checking the MPM website. I was suppose to take the Speaking test on 28/02/2012 and when I was checking online, I saw the approval letter and it stated that I was expected to take the exam on 21/02/2012 & today's 20/02/2012! Thank goodness I still have time.

EDIT on 1st of May:
Hello! I'm done with MUET and just got my result. I pass!! Yay!